I read an article this week in the new Yoga Journal about the practice of starting over. (see Feb 2007 edition pg.88 if you want to read the whole thing) Anyway, the idea felt real to me especially lately with my work and my health. To quote a line: "Starting-over practice switches your focus away from your limits and redirects it toward your strengths". Sounds good to me. I have been feeling frustrated with my wrist the past week as it seems to only want to get worse. I have to keep telling myself that it is my teacher, especially in my own yoga practice which feels limited right now, but also in my work as yoga teacher and massage therapist. Everything I do seems to require the use of two healthy hands, and what does one do when that's not the case? Find alternatives, start over. Think fresh. I am trying.
In the meanwhile I have some new ideas to play around with. One is considering learning to do massage work with my feet (sounds unappealing to some, but there are techniques out there!), and another is to get more serious about finding the actual problem. I am a bit cynical about Dr's and there abilities, often feeling like the information given is nothing that I haven't already guessed, read about myself, or know better. It feels disappointing to not be able to put my trust into someone in that role and believe that they can make a difference. But perhaps like our spiritual paths it is leading me to the answer that only I can heal myself. Only I can know myself. Don't you sometimes just want to be FIXED though? Like a car at a garage - though come to think of it I have as little faith in shady mechanics as I do in doctors these day - but you get the gist. I guess the bottom line is that life is work.
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